The post was written in September 2025
I believe that each one of us can self heal. Our body is smart and powerful, and if we will believe in it and our capabilities in doing of so called “magic”, this is what will happen. For a long time I do not believe in pills, in going to doctors or anything that is related to the conventional medicine. I believe that there are more ways to heal, ways that might look weird, not normal, or even crazy. I have no doubt that we need the conventional medicine in certain occasions, but in general we don’t need it; Especially when we try to run away from ourselves and think that the outer world has the answers instead of our inner world.
I believe that every illness, whatever it may be, is related to the spiritual world 100%. In other words, no matter if it is a genetic illness, something we were born with or an illness that suddenly appeared in our life, everything is related to us as souls and our consciousness.
My story
For a few years, I think about 8 years, I had a little lump of fat on my upper belly, right under my chest. When I checked it at my doctor, when I was still on regular checkups after my cancer, she said it's only aesthetic and I don’t need to panic. I could take it out in a surgery, but I didn’t want to do it because I don’t like anything that is related to medicine. I was always scared of it. But all of those years it didn’t really bother me, and I lived with it peacefully. At a certain point, I felt like it’s annoying to me and I don’t want it anymore, and I decided a few months ago that I will do self healing and make it disappear. I didn’t know how it will happen, but in my head I thought it can disappear out of the blue.
At the end of August, two days before September, the lump started to hurt. I thought it might be because I had a bra that put a bit more pressure on it, maybe it’s inner bleeding etc. I let things be. The pain got decreased since I was at home and nothing was pressing it (and also because I did self energetic healing) until I had to go out of my house on the first of September. And there everything went badly. The pain got increased, the lump became a bit bigger, and I was suffering the whole day.
And yet, I was stubborn and thought it is because of the pressure on it, and I wanted to believe it can disappear alone. I was so scared that I will need to open the place, considering the fact that I need to fly for two weeks and I didn’t want anything to ruin it. I didn’t want any medical intervention. But that wasn’t the case, and I scheduled an appointment to my family doctor – that immediately sent me to a surgeon to do drainage because it was inflammation that became worse while the time passed by. I will not get into details of how the drainage was, but at the end I had to get a medical intervention to get out the lump. Without the inflammation that popped all of the sudden – this lump would have stayed in my body probably, unless I would have done a surgery.
Do I still believe in self healing? Of course – and I still believe that it can happen in any case whatsoever. But sometimes it will happen from outer sources. Sometimes the universe, the consciousness, the source of who we truly are, just act in a different way of what we thought, and that’s ok. It doesn’t mean that my self healing didn’t work – but the opposite. The use of an external source, in the conventional medicine, just reminded me that I am not separated of of the external world and it’s ok to use it as well. At the end, what I wanted happened – to heal my body and make the lump disappear.
A lot of things looked like they are coincidences, but as I wrote in the past – nothing is a coincidence. First of all, we are in an energetic period of change. September, and the number 9 in numerology, symbolize a period of changes, of endings, of a transition from the old to the new. It also symbolizes closure. There is no coincidence that for me there are some things that comes to the surface – literally. The separation from this lump through inflammation was meant to be, and symbolically it was a sign of moving to a new era. To a change from who I was before, to what I want to become. From one version of me – to another one that is way better. Because we will never be the same version of ourselves. Every day, every moment, every second, we change. We can change the version of ourselves all the time, without apologizing and without asking permission from anyone.
This experience, as much as it was hurting me and was unpleasant, it was necessary. I let out a lot of unwanted pain and energy. I know that I had to release a lot – and here it happened. Because it was supposed to happen, sooner or later.
And my body? My body is a whole world. It is strong and healthy. Although while I write this I am using antibiotics, but I know that it is only for a short while that will only help my body. It’s ok to get help from pills, as long as it’s coming with awareness and understanding. And I am really taking this experience as a lesson for myself – that I had to go through to remind myself again and again how strong I am, that things has their way to happen and I just need to surrender, be grounded and in awareness of what happens inside. I remind myself to be thankful of my health, of my body, of this lump that brought a lot of pain but also a major relief and a change of consciousness.
It’s a bit hard to explain all of these things, you need to actually experience it. And so, if something does not necessarily feels good or feels like it’s for our good – it’s a part of our path. It was supposed to happen because there is no such thing as good or bad. It all depends on how we look at things. So yes, it was unpleasant, and I don’t want to go through it again, but I know everything is happening for my highest good, and if it happened like this, it had a reason.
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