Alchemy

Feel it.

Feel all of your emotions. The negative and positive ones. Your body wants to talk to you, it is a friend not a foe. Maybe the feeling will not be pleasant all the time, and we obviously gravitate towards what makes us feel the best, but sometimes the positive goes through the negative. The light can be revealed in the darkness. The moment you will let yourself unpack what you feel, will actually connect you to yourself. You will understand that this feeling came to you to tell a story – because it wants to be released from you. It is an energy that was hiding in your system for weeks, years, or maybe even generations. But when you feel it? You can change it. You can be an alchemist, to channel the power it has within, to change it’s form.

I’ll admit. It’s not always simple, not even for me. I went through a long journey with my pain and emotions, and still am. I always thought that something is wrong with me because I feel something negative. Because I discovered another layer of pain, of sadness. Of fear.

What I learned from all of it is that the pain, the sadness, the fear and everything related, are here so we can experience them. So we can learn from them. We are God in a human form for a reason, so denying this part of us or think that if we feel something negative means we are broken – is inherently wrong. It’s important to be compassionate with ourselves and validate what we think, feel and experience at the moment. Repression of all of these will make us repress the energy and accumulate it in our body – and after a while, we can get sick or see more and more situations that will mirror what we silence inside – because at the end of the day, the world is our mirror. Good or bad.

Of course I am not saying to get into loops of negative thinking and validate old patterns and actions that are not serving us. We need to be aware of what happens inside. If we find out that we are in a thinking loop or emotional loop etc, we got to stop and check what is the reason? What my body wants to tell me?

And how will we do it? In any way that is comfortable for us – meditation, intuitive writing, going for a walk, listening to music and more. Don’t run away from it and let other things distract your mind so the feelings will be gone – but be focused on the goal – to understand yourselves better.

Because I know it with myself – I am running away so I will not feel. Until recently it was running away to Tiktok, or funny videos or even computer games. So I won’t be in pain. So I won’t feel. So I can go back and be ok. But I understood it doesn’t serve me – and despite the difficulty, I am sitting with myself, whether it is in meditation or do some writing, and giving space to everything I feel and think. And yes, there are a lot of moments where I just want to run away and do something else, but I know it won’t help me for the long run. It will come back again and again and again, and maybe even more powerful than that.

What I have learned when I went to treatments with a spiritual guide is that it’s ok to feel the pain, and it’s ok to want it to be gone. We will always have in our head two voices. And it is important to give both of them space, so it will not become a resistance that will make the pain stay without handling the root problem. I truly believe that it shouldn’t take long. Both of these voices are just part of the self – of the mask of who we are in this 3D world. But underneath this mask is the truth – who we truly are. Source. God. The energy in which we validate one thing or another. The moment we will give both of these voices space, legitimate them and also love them unconditionally, the friction between them will stop or just be felt way less.

Maybe it will take a year, a week, or maybe a month and more so this practice will be automatic. And that’s ok. The first thing that is important here is our awareness to it. To the pain, to that emotions that come up, to the behaviors that can show up after a trigger. Try to think about it this way: if it was your best friend dealing with all of it, how would you treat them? What will you say to them? Will you be judgmental towards them or compassionate and loving no matter what? And if you will switch your best friend with yourself, you can see how simple it can be. We don’t need to complicate anything, just let things be.

The awareness of the now can help us in a lot of ways – whether it is to get some clarity, to an instant relief, to self healing etc. Moreover, working on our beliefs, blockages, fears and anger can release from within us a lot of restrained energy and let things flow as they should. Everything we want can come to us fast and be here without any effort. Life shouldn’t be hard, complex or full of suffering and sorrow. We will suffer and complex things if we will resist. If we will not let what comes up to us the space it needs. If we will not listen to it. If we will not channel it and release it.

Start doing it today, because it is never too late – no matter how old you are, where do you live, what you do in life etc. Everyday, every moment, is the perfect time to start or just restart.