The magic of the present moment

Meditation in my life

I always had an unresolved problem with meditations. On one hand – I didn’t like to sit down with myself for a few moments or minutes. I had a difficulty with the fact that I had to sit in silence to relax my mind, my thoughts (although meditation is not supposed to make us relaxed or silence our thoughts) or just “waste my time” on meditation. Most of the time I am resisting meditating, and I feel like it’s happening because I have been told it’s a must. You must meditate everyday. You must do it at least an hour. You must and must and must…

On the other hand, there are some days that I enjoy it a lot. Some days I just wait to meditate and what I will find out next. The time for meditation is not just some time to myself, but time to new discoveries, to reconnect to who I am, to an amazing feeling of floating in my own body. Sometimes I get messages from my meditations and it amazes me every single time.

The first time I took meditations seriously was two years ago, in August 2023, when I joined some kind of a spiritual group formed by Kriston Jackson, a wonderful lady from England that I follow for years. One of the things she said was to meditate everyday so we can practice who we want to be; So we can practice how we want to feel. And so, for 6 months, or even more, I meditated everyday for 10 minutes max. It was difficult for me to do more than that, until I felt like it doesn’t serve me and I stopped doing daily meditations. One of the reasons was that I forced myself to meditate. Not because I wanted to – but because I was sure it will help me with something. Yes, I had some wonderful moments that I managed to connect deeper to myself. I even heard my name (in meditation), like my guides or my soul were calling me out loud, although I was alone in my house.

Usually, all that I did was to visualize what I wanted, and try to feel it real. But after these 10 minutes, I was back to see the world the same way and I didn’t feel any difference. Today, of course, I know that I was in a different level of awareness, and so my ability to really hold the things that I wanted was not big enough. Everything is in alignment to us and to our path.

Life goes in harmony, in flow. If we will do something that goes against the flow or we will resist to it, it will make things harder for us.

The magic of the present moment

Do we really need to meditate daily? Do we really need to take a few minutes aside, close our eyes and take deep breaths to do so?

No. To some people it will be easier to meditate, and that’s great. But personally, I can’t do it everyday in the morning, especially not for at least an hour. I can do ten, twenty, thirty or even forty minutes top. But I can’t meditate more than that. And that’s ok. It might happen because sometimes I get into meditation with a certain purpose – some kind of reward. And in a way I am certain that we are promised some things regarding meditations.

But meditation is not what we get after or how we feel after. And it’s not what we think it is – sitting in silence and deep breathing. Meditation is everything we are aware of – the here and now. Meditation can be sitting in the balcony and look at the sunset. Or the time between being awake and being asleep, when the mind is just peaceful and we are about to fall asleep. Meditation can be the moment we are in the bus, looking through the window or the moment we read a book and use our imagination.

I love meditations, especially when I don’t force myself or expect to get something out of it. It all depends on how we get into it – what is our state of mind. But as I said, we don’t need to sit down, close our eyes and do it exactly like this. We can take anything, put awareness into it, and be in a very simple meditation. Limitless. One that gives us peace of mind. Anchor.

And this is the magic of the present moment. Every moment is a chance to silence, to peace, to love, to eternal beauty.

Each and one of us has a unique way we can connect to ourselves, to connect to the present moment, to connect to who we truly are. If something is not working – if something feels forced or like a job, it means it’s not in alignment with us. And how can we be more aligned? We will ask ourselves what we want to do that can be a (limited) time to connecting with the self. For example – listening to music, reading a book, walk in nature, sitting under the sun in the garden or in the balcony etc. Everything that feels right, everything that our body will lean towards; Everything that will help us to disconnect from anything else, from how fast-paced things are around us. From all of the noise that is outside of us.

Meditation is what we will let it be. It is a practice to look within – to look at our emotions, the inner sensations of our body, our thoughts… But it is also the simplicity of the nothing and the everything. The concentration and the anchor of the present moment. The beauty in the little things. The inner silence. Silence doesn’t mean that we won’t have pain or think thoughts. But we will be able to notice inside the silent mind the thoughts or the emotions and not identify with them, just let them pass like storm clouds.